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Woman with NDE during coma now has Cotard's syndrome

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It was New Year’s Eve 2024/2025. I had pneumonia, but I was partying with my partner. It was around 5 am that we decided to go to sleep. I took my night meds (a very high dose of Seroquel) and my partner went upstairs to make a snack before bed. When he came back downstairs, he was unable to wake me. I was in a baby fetal position, curled up face down with butt up. He pushed me over and I was grey with mucus from my lungs covering my face. I was already gone. They called 911 and were doing two-person CPR on me until medics arrived. I was airlifted to another hospital and was in a coma in the ICU for 5 days.

The NDE that I recall was my awareness coming to, while I was in front of this otherworldly being. It was implied that the being was some sort of gatekeeper between the living world and whatever is after it. I was told (with no words) that I could choose one thing to have with me as I watch my life review. I chose my partner. Then, he and I sat in lawn chairs, watching my life, seemingly in a series of crappy b-movies (b-movies were a thing my partner and I enjoyed together).

That's my whole NDE; nothing before or after it.

I have memories of being in the coma as well. Apparently, I woke frequently and was extremely agitated and disoriented.

I had zero follow-up and struggled with Cotard’s Syndrome for over a year. I still have it but it’s on the back burner for now. I do still have Cotard-like symptoms though. For example, I believe I’m still dead and am existing on the previous timeline, like a ghost. I have no connection to people in my life and struggle with meaning. I also believe that the world is going to end in some way, shape, or form soon, as well as believing that my body is decaying.